You Sacrifice So Much of Your Life in Order for This to Work.

I was making Wes another mix CD when I came across the song "No One Gets Left Behind" By Devotchka - It's in the movie Little Miss Sunshine. I was also looking up quotes (just cause I do that a lot) and I decided to transition my search from Jimi Hendrix quotes to Little Miss Sunshine quotes. God, I love that movie.

"You know what? Fuck beauty contests. Life is one fucking beauty contest after another. School, then college, then work... Fuck that. And fuck the Air Force Academy. If I want to fly, I'll find a way to fly. You do what you love, and fuck the rest."

It got me thinking of how much sole truth is in that, and when it really comes down to it fuck everyone else, your happiness is the number one priority. If you're not happy then you can't please other people and carry out living your life. If you fake being happy then you're lying to everyone; and the feeling of fooling everyone like that is just about as bad as having someone say "I'm not mad, just disappointed in you." So wouldn't you rather be genuinely happy and not have to constantly think of "Oh gosh I gotta do this so I can cover that up and make sure to please you so that I can have a good day." ? I mean, in all serious. I know this whole thing sounds selfish as hell. But fuck it, after everything that's happened this year I've learned that once you can put yourself on your feet and go down your own road, (not someone else's planned out for you) that you can figure shit out your way and then just be happy. This all probably doesn't make any sense at all. But it does to me. Might make sense to Weston as well. Speaking of, so this kid Wesley Lethem; yeah. He's my best fucking friend. He's my bro. He's just everything that is good in this world combined into this 5'8 (just a guess) of flesh. I love him quite a lot. I know I said that Lexi was my best friend, and she is. But I've got three. Lexi, Weston, and Breezy. I have so much to thank the three of you for. Everything about them makes me happy. I don't have to try to be happy; I just am, and that's fucking wonderful to me.

So today, I've got a church to be at by eight thirty or so for a two hour wake for my Great Grandma and then a funeral at eleven? I can't remember. Then I've got a luncheon that I'm supposed to attend and then another after after thing at Country Corners until like five or so. Then after all that depressing stuff; I get to go to The Loft and see Kiernan McMullan(sp?) Loftland Fighting Aurora and a couple other bands with Weston<4+5 and Jake H. I'm excited. It's gonna be a good end to a long day.

God damn, I'm gonna post another right after this one.